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  • 1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yes, easily. 

  • 2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? I'm not dating anyone, but I'm in no state to be dating anyone.

  • 3: What if I told you that you were pretty? I'd say thank you but it wouldn't sink in if I'm being honest because I'd think you were just trying to be nice. :/

  • 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? No 

  • 5: Are you interested in anyone right now? No

  • 6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Seeing my psychiatrist to hopefully let go of some of my stress.  

  • 7: Do you want to be single? Yes and no; obviously it's nice to be loved but I'm not ready to move on just yet. 

  • 8: Did you go out or stay in last night? Stay in.

  • 9: How late did you stay up last night? Till 3 am

  • 10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? New years eve

  • 11: Last three things you had to drink? Water, water, water 

  • 12: Have you pretended to like someone? Not really, I thought I liked someone more than I actually did but that's it.

  • 13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? No

  • 14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Bit personal, but yes. 

  • 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Yeah, I find it really hard but I don't express it on the outside. 

  • 16: Think back five months ago, were you single? No, ouch. 

  • 17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? Watching YouTube videos.

  • 18: Hold hands with anyone this week? My best friend dragged me along by my hand when  was drunk the other day, haha. 

  • 19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Yes, but I won't. 

  • 20: What would you name your future daughter? No idea.

  • 21: Do you miss anyone? Yes.

  • 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Yes.

  • 23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? No, standing up.

  • 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Yes.

  • 25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes. 

  • 26: Who did you last see in person? My brother about 10 minutes ago, but out of non-family related people I last saw my ex a few days ago. 

  • 27: Are you listening to music right now? I'm not.

  • 28: What is something you currently want right now? Control, motivation, happiness. 

  • 29: What is the last thing you said out lot? Probably "Shit." because I'm clumsy like that. 

  • 30: How is your heart lately? Painful. 

  • 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? When it's raining. 

  • 32: Are you wearing socks? No

  • 33: What do people call you? Bethy, Bethanethaly, Bessie, Beth, Ginge 

  • 34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? No

  • 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? Story of my life, yes.

  • 36: Who did you last share a bed with? My ex, a few days ago. 

  • 37: Did you do something bad today? Yes. 

  • 38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? My ex, the other day. 

  • 39: Do you get stressed out easily? Yes.

  • 40: Will you sing today? Yes.

  • 41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Always.

  • 42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? I don't, I hold it in. 

  • 43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? Not in an ambulance, but I have spent a lot of time in an emergency room. 

  • 44: What are you listening to right now? Now, Demi Lovato - Train wreck

  • 45: What is wrong with you right now? Just depressed.

  • 46: What is on your wrists right now? Scars. 

  • 47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? Newlook (pajama top)

  • 48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? I don't like hot drinks.

  • 49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? No

  • 50: Are you a good artist? I used to be, I gave up. 

  • 51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? No.

  • 52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? Yes and no. 

  • 53: Ever been on a golf cart? No

  • 54: Do you have trust issues? Definitely. 

  • 55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? Yes, ex's, various other boys, best friends, 

  • 56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? What?

  • 57: Do you use chap stick? I used Vaseline on my lips

  • 58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? Yes :/

  • 59: Do you have a little sister? Yes 

  • 60: Have you ever been to New York? No

  • 61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? No

  • 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yes 

  • 63: What were you doing at midnight last night? Probably sulking. 

  • 64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes 

  • 65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yes, my best friend. 

  • 66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? No 

  • 67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Yes 

  • 68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Someone else. 

  • 69: Will next Friday be a good one? No. 

Why did I trust him?

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Ignorance is bliss

Today I decided to go outside. I've been outside before but not for a while. I've been taking time off college to deal with my break-down that I suffered just over a week ago. I went to meet my friends who I haven't seen in a while. I didn't expect it to be how it was before I got 'ill' but it was far worse than I imagined. I felt so vulnerable in a sea filled with people. I could feel passerby's eyes all over me; it was a horrible feeling. I just wanted to run away. I used to be such a confident person but now even the slightest dodgy look from a stranger can make me feel 2 foot tall. I tried to talk to my friends about my depression, anxiety and bulimia nervosa, but they don't understand. They don't understand how low my self esteem is or how I can't socialise with people or why I don't feel like eating anything or doing anything. They don't recognise depression as an actual illness they make assumptions that maybe I just feel a little upset now and then. It's a lot deeper than that. It affects how I feel about myself, interactions with other people, my energy levels, my college work; it affects just about every aspect of my life. It honestly feels like if I don't have a broken leg or a sprained food then in other people's minds 'I'm not ill' I hate the stigma on mental illness, just because it isn't visible doesn't mean it's not a real life-limiting problem.

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Tumblr quiz, posted January 5th, 2013
Why did I trust him?, posted December 31st, 2012, 1 comment
Ignorance is bliss, posted December 6th, 2012, 1 comment

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